So many things I have tried to say
All of them come down to, will you stay?
Love is hard to conceive,
When I’m waiting for you to leave.
I don’t know how to trust,
But I’m trying to adjust.
In my mind so much is wrong,
I don’t feel like I belong.
Your world is so calm and free.
What could you possible see, in me?
Divorced, two children, and stress;
Everything is such a mess.
So stubborn, hard, and direct;
Nothing about me is perfect
So much hidden behind my face
So many feelings of disgrace
Broken, weak, and alone
Nothing I allow to be shown
I know I’m different from the rest
But if I can make a request,
Please, if you won’t stay
Go ahead and walk away.
I know I appear to be so strong
But that illusion, is very wrong
Under this confident and hard exterior
I actually feel quite inferior.
After so much pain and neglect
I’m trying to protect,
The little piece of me left unbroken
It’s vulnerable, gentle and softly spoken
It’s easier for me to push you away
What else can I say?
I may never learn to accept true love
It’s the one thing; I have always been neglected of.